Sunday, September 17, 2017

30 Days of Me: I'm really bad at this...

I've officially given up writing every day. (Which is probably super noticeable since... I should be done with my 30 days by now...) But eventually I'll get through these 30 prompts. It just might take me some time.

Day 10: Songs you listen to when you're Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, and Mad

Okay so this one is really hard for me because all of my music for me is mixed together. For some people listening to music can help change their mood or influence their mood. For me... well... It all makes me happy to an extent. I just love listening to music. Sometimes I wonder if I have feelings at all.

I like to listen to Adele, Anberlin, Rise Against, Avenged Sevenfold, Jason Mraz, ED SHEERAN, movie music, etc. I can't list everything. Often times I'm more of a songs person than an artist person, I believe that all artists can have good songs and all artists can have bad songs so I pick and I choose. I don't have go to playlists like some people. I wonder what it would be like to be that way. Sometimes I just love to be drowned in the guitar and drums. I'm a very easy to please.

So in all... I can just say that I love music. And if you have any suggestions for me, let me know! :)

Day 11: Another Picture of You and Your Friends....

Well shoot! That one is even harder! I don't have too many friends right now and the ones I do have I don't have pictures with currently. I'll have to go for like a super old picture or multiple pictures!

this picture is super out of date but I'm still friends with most of these people.

The benefits(?) of serving a mission- You lose all your friends. Just kidding life just keeps moving and sometimes you aren't in on it anymore and that is perfectly normal. I have no recent photos so you can judge me all you want that's fine by me. :P But yeah my friends are babes.

Day 12: How you found out about Blogger and why you made one

To heck if I remember. That was literally so many moons ago. I probably had a friend that had one or something and I was like hey I like to write why not. Its great stress relief but that is my very lame answer. You're welcome.

Well... I think that's enough pretending I'm good at this for today. I'll see you again the next time I decide it's a good idea to put a little piece of my soul onto the internet. 

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Oh... Bother

It's official I think I have to be fired from my own blog... haha I am not very good at this writing every day thing. Anyway... Lets play catch up... Again... FREAKING AGAIN?!?!

Day 7: A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you

For this one I couldn't just pick one person or place so I decided to go with my parents. I know its pretty cheesy but that's okay. If anyone had a big impact on the way that I am it was and is my parents. I like to tell people that between my mom and my papi my humor is just shot. I get most of it from my mom who gets it from her dad. But that doesn't mean I'm funny. As for the nerdiness that almost literally eminates from me... That's all from my dad. In the picture I'm using it was on my dad's 50th birthday when I bought him a Doctor Who 50th Anniversary Encyclopedia to which his automatic response was to sit down my 3 or 4 year old brother and start teaching him about Doctor Who. Our deep family discussions often include super heroes and comic books as well as Star Trek and just about anything else you can think of.

I love my parents very much and I love the influence they have had on me whether that be in my humor, my religion or my nerdiness, they have always been such good examples to me of love, dedication and service. They support me in basically everything I do and I love them so much for that.

Day 8: Short Term Goals for this month

Well I didn't start at the beginning of a month I'm kinda in the middle of the month but a few of the ones that I did have for August were obtain a car and Start school. Both of which have been accomplished. I think I'll set some short term goals for September. I would like to be able to do all of my homework and study well. I think that For September I'd like to try to make more friends and be slightly more social. But I can't think of any other short term goals... I think I need to re-learn how to set goals... haha I'll do that and then come back to it.

Day 9: Something you're proud of in the last few days

oh boy this is a hard one... How many days are few days? haha well I did just get a car and I feel like that is a very big accomplishment for myself. I still sometimes have difficulties believing that I actually own a car. Its awesome!! :) but that was like a week ago... almost two so... Hmmm the past few days... Well I've noticed that since my mission I've been able to talk to people easier. It's literally insane to me. I had a full conversation today with a boy I randomly happened to walk near on campus and it was a pretty decent one. I never would have done that as easily before. So big pat on the back for me! haha Yay! other than that I think its an awesome accomplishment that I'm still alive! That's always a miracle. :)

Alright now I just have to write todays post and I'm officially caught up. Man I'm bad at this. And to those of you reading if there are any... I'm sorry I'm the worst. I am a disgrace to the Ravenclaw house... :/ that is all

till later today...

Sunday, August 20, 2017

30 Days of Me: Day 6

Favorite Super Hero and Why?
Image result for spiderman comic

Anyone that knows me well knows that this question isn't worth asking. Haha Spiderman is my favorite super hero hands down. I've been in love with him since I was like 12 or something like that. So once upon a time my sister was doing marching band her freshman year in high school and my family was going to her very first ever parade and as we were walking to find a good spot to sit and have a good view there was a comic book store and outside of this comic book store on this particular day was a man dressed up as Spiderman handing out free Spiderman comic books. To my 12 year old mind this man was Spiderman and he was even signing the outside plastic as if he were Spidey himself. I didn't see him as a man in a costume he was the REAL Spiderman. I never realized it at the time but I think that is also part of the reason I got into Cosplay because he made such a huge impact on me. So the main reason that Spiderman is my favorite super hero is because He gave me my very first comic book. There's no going back from that. At any given time standing in my room with only moving your head you can typically see at least 8 things spiderman. and the Living room which I'm currently sitting in I look around and see at least 4 things spiderman all of which belong to me. You could say I have a bit of a problem but you know what I'm okay with that. Spiderman is my hero and I love him forever.
So many people find out that I love spiderman and they ask "So... Tobey McGuire or Andrew Garfield (and now) or Tom Holland" and my response is always "Uh... SPIDERMAN!" I don't care who plays him or how he's portrayed I love him. There are definitely things I love about each of their takes and there are definitely things I don't like about each of them, but the one thing they have in common is that they played my super hero on the big screen and I love it! :P so yeah that's me. A small look into my mind. Viva el Spiderman!

Here We Go Again

Okay yeah so I'm really bad at challenges... So sue me! Just kidding... Today is gonna be a bit of a make up day I think I have three days plus today to make up for so this post will be the missed days and I'll posted another one for today's real question.

Day 3: a  picture of your animals

These are my animals. I have top to bottom: Leopold (Leo), Sampson (Sammy), Pepper, and my personal favorite Snoopy! I love them all very much however My family and their allergies are getting more sensitive to the cats so we might have to get rid of some of them and it brakes my heart. Snoopy is my very favorite of all of them, he's blind in one eye because when he was a kitten he was playing with his brothers and sisters and one of them scratched his eye. At least that's the story we heard. He's so loving and almost more like a dog than a cat he's so fun to observe. The picture of him I have here is the day before I left on my mission, he's sitting on my suitcase. It was almost as if he was telling me not to leave him. When I came home he ignored me for a little while I think he was a little bit bitter at me for leaving but now he loves me again.

Day 4: A Habit That You Wish You Didn't Have

I honestly don't feel like I have that bad of habits. I don't bite my nails or chew with my mouth open. Hmmm... I don't know this is a really hard one. My little sister said "binge watching TV shows when you should be doing something productive" but I do my productive things before watching TV typically. I guess I could go with sleeping till the last possible second. I sometimes cut it close when it comes to getting to places. But I'm working on it! But that's the only thing that I can think of I need to get better at waking up on time.

Day 5: A picture of Somewhere You've been to

This is a picture that I took in Oregon when I was serving in the Roseberg area. It was super difficult to decide what picture to share or post but Oregon definitely has my heart so I wanted to pick a picture that shows the beauty of it. It doesn't do everything justice but. Oregon. I want to go back so bad! I just fell in love.

YAY I'm all caught up again. Now I need to do the one that I have to do for today hahaha :) its a good thing not very many people read so that means I can maybe get away with it hehehe

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

30 Days of Me: Day 2

I shall not fail! I have been really not wanting to blog today but I shall not be defeated by this challenge. Today is "the meaning behind your blog name"

So not very interesting, but I'll take a twist on it as well. So my blog is as you can see called "The Graceless Form" I don't really have much meaning behind it, at all really... I'm pretty sure I picked it cause I felt like I didn't have too much grace as a person, I'm kinda clutsy and awkward butt hats okay. I came up with my blog name so many years ago it's ridiculous. But yeah, it's also the name of my tumblr in which case I could totally pretend that it was intentional and I was talking about a "Supernatural" angel that lost their grace. Therefore graceless form but alas that is not the truth entirely but I kinda dig the concept.

My twist on it is the meaning behind my blog pen name which is Lolovivi. I think it's French or something. I was in the eighth grade and I was kinda dating a boy. We picked random names with meanings and his was Pepin and mine was Lolovivi. I don't remember what Pepin meant but Lolovivi is something along the lines of "there is always love" which kinda makes me giggle because at the time I applied it to him which didn't end up panning out but it became my pen name and has been ever since, I still believe that there is always love so it works out.

Anyway I just didn't wanna fail so early but that's my answer! That's it for number 2! Until tomorrow! Ciao

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

30 Days of Me: Day 1

Well hello there blog. Its been quite a few moons since I've been heard from... But as I have gotten bored and I have been pinning like no bodies business on Pinterest I have decided that I'm going to try to write a bit more often. I came across a challenge for writing called 30 Days of Me, so I said "shoot why not" and so here I am over 4 years since my last post starting on a 30 day journey to blog more... I hope I don't pull a VEDA here... I'd rather not fail miserably this time haha

Here Goes. All for nothing. 

30 Days of Me
Day 1: A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about you

HUZZAH!! There I am! Aren't I cute! Well that can be up for debate.

Now for 15 interesting facts about me... Well I know that I did a blog about me before and some stuff most people don't necessarily know about me (unless they do and or read my blog post...) so hopefully I don't pick the same things or steal from other posts that might be a thing later on in this challenge. I guess we'll find out!

  1. I think the most popular color in my wardrobe is black. Its like in the lego movie when batman says, "I only work in black, or very dark shades of gray" I actually really like all colors but there's something about black that just makes anyone look good! 
  2. I have no plans to be married soon but I already know where I want to get married and that I want my two main colors to be Gray and Purple. That's my favorite color combination, boys in gray suits and purple accessories, whether that be the tie or the shirt, make me swoon. Its a dangerous color combination. Haha
  3. As a side note to number 2. I also want to have my future husband (whoever you might be ;) ) to pick out another color to go with my two as long as it doesn't clash. Because in my opinion... it will be as much his wedding as it is mine. 
  4. I served a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints. I served in the Oregon Eugene Mission for 18 months and I loved it. Oregon is one of my favorite places ever. I do have to admit though, at first, I was very upset to be sent to Oregon. But after being home now for 4 months I couldn't imagine it any other way. 
  5. I just bought my first car! Its so nice to be able to take myself places and not panic about other people, I don't have to drive people places unless I want to! Its going to make work and school so much easier to get to. 
  6.  I like to tell people that fall is my favorite holiday. people usually say "Fall's not a holiday!" To which I say "HECK YEAH IT IS!" I really love the fall. The colors, the smells, the food. Literally we have a day in the fall dedicated to getting tons of candy shortly followed by one dedicated to eating food and pretending that's how it was in the ancient colonies. So fall is just the best!
  7. I love to Cosplay. If you don't know... It stands for Costume Play. It's when you dress up in costume for lots of different events and or parties and sometimes you do it just for fun. It is one of my favorite things which is a good excuse to like the fall. Halloween. One of the few days of the year that I don't get judged for wanting to put on a costume. Luckily I have rockin' friends who also like to cosplay so you know. Winning. One time on my mission I got made fun of so bad for cosplaying at home that I cried. That was super depressing. 
  8. I love little kid shows. I can gladly spend a day watching Jake and the Neverland Pirates with my little brother. Or literally, me and my siblings (all but one over the age of 13) were watching all of the Tinkerbell movies over the past few weeks. We just have to watch "The Pirate Fairy" (my personal favorite, she's on my list of people to cosplay) and "Tinkerbell and the Neverbeast" to finish watching all of them and I'm really excited about it. I've never seen the Never Beast!
  9. I have the uncanny knack of memorizing said childrens theme songs. I've got Sailor Moon, Arthur, Zaboomafoo, Danny Phantom, Avatar the Last Airbender, Barney, My Little Pony, etc. Its really funny, and fun. I really enjoy it. 
  10. I do a martial art called hapkido. I've been doing it for the past 7 years. I tested for my black belt before my mission. I originally got into it because my boyfriend at the time did it. I would go and watch him and then my master came up to me and was like "If you're gonna watch you might as well participate. So I did and now here I am 7 years later, You could say I fell in love. With the art, not the boy. He's married now. 
  11. In elementary school I used to tell people that I came from the planet Pluto. Needless to say... I'm a little butt hurt about them denouncing pluto as a planet. When I was going to elementary school I learned to remember the planets by using the phrase " My Very Excellent Mother Just Served Us Nine Pizzas" Mercury Venus Earth Mars Jupiter Saturn Uranus Neptune Pluto. Since saying Pluto wasn't a real planet My Very Excellent Mother Just Served Us Nine.... NINE WHAT!!! See it doesn't make any sense. Thanks NASA for confusing small children everywhere.
  12. That being said... I used to want to be an astronomer! But I convinced myself that I wasn't smart enough for that.... :/
  13. I also wanted to be a marine biologist. but also not being smart and also...
  14. I can't swim very well.
  15. If you haven't noticed... I'm struggling to get some of these last ones however... Last but not least is actually that I'm currently studying Criminal Justice. I'm super excited about it and I hope I don't convince myself I'm not smart enough. Although secretly I really want to be a interior designer/party planner. That would be my dream job. But I really like criminal justice too. I'm taking intro to forensics this semester and I'm really really excited. I"m not sure what I want to do with my degree yet but I have a few desires which include but are not limited to a detective, a forensic scientist, or a crime analyst. We'll see where it takes me. :) 
So there you have it! a picture and 15 hopefully interesting facts about me! I hope you enjoyed. Till tomorrow! Ciao!

Monday, June 24, 2013

Just some thoughts

Friends should be the people you know will always have your back. In my life I have learned that it is hard to find that relationship and keep it. I have had the craziest of roller coasters in my life and because of it it has made me act or portray myself as a hater or a hardcore pessimist.
But honestly once you get to know me well, I am one of the most vulnerable people out there. I am such a softie and that's why I let out a rough and tumble strong girl appearance because I feel it necessary to alleviate the opportunities to hurt me. I want more than anything to be able to love and give my heart away but its scary.
I want the opportunity to open up like I used to.. But its hard once you build up a wall to let people come and knock it down... Especially when you fear rejection.. when everyone believes you will fail or are wasting your time its hard. But such is life. Carry on, right?